A pastor recently asked me a sincere and thoughtful question. I appreciate questions like this because they come from a place of wanting to understand, not attack.
The Question:
“Thank you, and thank you for your grace in my search for understanding. You are saying, if I am hearing you correctly, that you have to be in adult film, you can’t stop even if you wanted, because you are a slave to it according to your nature. That you have no free will to change because it is who you are. Am I getting it?”
My Response:
Thank you for your message and your heart to understand. I want to gently and clearly correct a misunderstanding, because that is not what I am saying.
My walk with God is not about defending sin or promoting a lifestyle. It is about exalting Jesus and His finished work on the cross.
I am not saying I am a slave with no free will. I am saying that transformation does not come through pressure, shame, fear, or religious control. Transformation comes through grace.
Grace is not behavior-based. Grace is Christ-based.
Romans 5:20 tells us, “Where sin increased, grace abounded much more.” That verse does not excuse sin, but it does expose something powerful. There is no place God’s grace cannot reach. No corner too dark. No story too complicated. The blood of Jesus did not stop working at the doors of a church building. It flows into every part of humanity.
I do not glorify what I do. I glorify the One who loves me in the middle of it.
When Jesus encountered the woman caught in adultery in John 8, He did not start with correction. He did not demand immediate behavior change. He did not shame her publicly to make a theological point. He said, “Neither do I condemn you.” Grace came first. Then transformation followed. Condemnation never sets anyone free. Grace does.
That is the pattern of Jesus.
My calling may look unconventional, but God has always used unexpected people in unexpected places. Some are sent to pulpits. Some are sent to boardrooms. Some are sent to prisons, hospitals, strip clubs, film sets, and places where brokenness hides behind closed doors. God is not limited by our comfort zones.
Romans 6:14 says, “Sin shall not have dominion over you, for you are not under law but under grace.” That is the freedom I live in. Freedom does not mean perfection. It means I am no longer ruled by shame, fear, or religious performance. Jesus carried my guilt and my condemnation on the cross. I refuse to pick it back up.
Grace does not make me want to sin more. Grace makes me love Jesus more. And that love is what brings real, lasting change from the inside out.
So no, I do not apologize for the journey I am on. I am grateful for it. Because my life, even in its messiest moments, is proof that grace is greater than sin and Jesus never stops showing up where religion says He should not.
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Whether you love me or love to hate me you are still my lover.
Jesus loves you and so do I!